
This will be the week... most likely anyway... that Geni is born. How is it that I can feel SOOO much less prepared to give birth to her than I was to Mel? I've done this already! but am TERRIFIED!!!
I want to be cuddling Mel every moment of the day... I feel like this is the last time... something. Things will never be the same. I already feel homesick for the family I have right now, and nothing has even changed yet!
I know things will be different and WONDERFUL with Geni here... of course they will be and blah blah blah... but still.... I really enjoy life with my men- and am nearly sick with all the anticipation of the unknown everything.
There is so much to be done! So much to look forward to! What will I regret about this last week... what do I need to focus on? Will I wish I would have let the toilets mold a few months longer and really PLAYED with Mel more? Or going to playdates I won't be getting around to in so long? Will I wish I would have relaxed and literally put my feet up more so I would have actually had the energy required to give birth?
I think I'll go eat some icecream- watch what is left of Toy Story 2 with Mel... and then put us both down for a nap. I'm feeling exhausted.
Yesterday Mark took the day off so we could get things more ready for Geni... but to start the day we spent the morning at the zoo... petting zoo especially... Mel loves the goats. It was wonderful. Thus, the picture.